http://www.theeternalguestroom.com Infertility kinda sucks. Mon, 20 Feb 2012 01:25:45 +0000 http://backend.userland.com/rss092 en I'm going to continue posting on this blog, but I don't want to post straight-up pregnancy updates here. So we're moving those to our other blog, which we created awhile ago in hopes that it would eventually lead to that. Be warned that it's very picture-heavy. If you want to follow ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/02/19/transitioning/ We didn't quite hit five years, but we came close to it. It wasn't easy - in fact it felt like it was going to just about kill me at times - but we're finally moving forward. Our 12 week appointment this afternoon showed two healthy, active babies. They moved their limbs ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/02/13/moving-forward-starting-to-believe/ I've had a few people ask me when I'm going to post again. My answer has been "I don't know; I guess when I have something to say." The truth is, I'm not really sure what to say here. I feel like I'm in a weird sort of "in between" place ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/02/08/in-between/ We got to see the babies today (babies!). Both are measuring right on track at 9 weeks and both have good heartbeats. We got to hear the heartbeats this time too - it was incredible. I had tears in my eyes. After the sonogram, we went into an exam room to ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/01/17/good-news/ I should have posted yesterday after my appointment but I was so tired I just sat on the couch all evening. Walking into the waiting room was hard. I figured I'd be thrilled to be arriving in this condition instead of my usual one. With my husband instead of my own ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/01/13/more-waiting/ We have an appointment with the OB on Thursday afternoon; as Thursday draws closer the panic sets in. I've still been afraid to look too far ahead because I know how many things can go wrong. I hear so many stories of people going in for appointments and finding out ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/01/10/fears-2/ We walked into the clinic thinking "this may be the last time we ever come here." Ironically, I had to give them my license and insurance card and sign new papers because they got a new system. I guess I'll think of it as "new beginnings." In a blur we walked ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/01/04/surprise/ Tomorrow's the big day. Twenty four hours from now (2:00). The day we find out if this is real. If there's an actual living, growing baby in there with a heartbeat. I'm more nervous than I can even say. It's been a long 3 weeks. The longest 3 weeks of my life. ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2012/01/03/nervous/ I won't leave you in any more suspense. It worked. It really did. I think I'm still in shock. I got my first positive test the morning after my birthday (6dp5dt); it was a faint line on a stick, but it was there. Three days later I went in for a blood test, and ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2011/12/27/the-results-2/ That is the big question. Some people don't test at all until their beta (blood test). They want to wait until the definitive answer; those sticks can be so ambiguous. Plus, it's hard to see a negative result on a test, and sometimes those can be wrong, either way. Other people can't ... http://www.theeternalguestroom.com/2011/12/11/to-test-or-not-to-test/