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My babies were born on August 1.

It feels so surreal to write that. None of it feels real.

But they are very real – my perfect, beautiful babies. Two of them! I still can’t believe it, and I don’t know if I ever will.

I worried the whole way through, but it turned out to be a waste of time. They were born at 37 weeks exactly – 6lb 10oz and 7lb 1 oz. They had no complications, no health problems, nothing – they were born, came to our room with us right away, went straight home with us as soon as I was ready to leave the hospital.

I’ve been meaning to post for the longest time. In short, I’ve been super busy. In reality, I wasn’t sure what to say. What do you say after five and a half years? What is there to say? There are times in life when you realize how inadequate words are. I know I’ll never have the perfect thing to say.

I know how lucky I am. How fortunate. How blessed. However you want to say it. I only had to do one round of IVF. I got 2 babies. Both babies made it – to 37 weeks, at normal baby size. What more could I ask for?

I still feel guilty. It came so easily, really. Despite the worries, my fears, and the possibilities. How did I get so lucky? I’ll never know.

But I know what I’ve been given. It isn’t easy, for sure – having twins is as hard as everyone said it would be, and even harder than I could have imagined – but they bring happy tears to my eyes all the time, and I know.

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Thrilled to hear of their safe arrival. Wishing you rest and/or lots of coffee as you parent your sweet blessings. It goes by so fast, doesn’t it?!

  • I too am a mom of twins from IVF. I had my twin boys on our third try with IVF. My first ended in a miscarriage at 13 weeks, the second got cancelled, and the third brought us our two miracles. I can totally related to the it’s “even harder than I could have imagined” but wow so awesome. It is also true when they say it gets easier. My boys are 21 months now and I have totally adjusted. I am so glad you got a chance to post. I have been checking your blog periodically and hoping for good news. I am glad it was what I was hoping- you have been busy:) Congratulations to you! Also please know that the negative feelings like guilt, etc. are so normal when you have been through what we have been through. We are happy for ourselves and so wishing everyone else that is on this journey can have the same results. All of our feelings are legitimate and it is ok to have them as long as we do not get stuck in the negative ones. Enjoy your little ones and all the happiness they bring you.

  • Yay! I am so, so, so happy for you!!! You deserve every ounce of happiness, momma!

    It goes by fast, huh? Enjoy. :) My girl is now six months, I can hardly believe it!

  • love this post. been following you for quite some time and thrilled with your happy ending. i’m a firm believer in your pregnancy and birth being so easy, because getting there was not. enjoy those babies!!!! =)

  • Muy parecido a su artículo, aprendí mucho de aquí. He aquí una gran variedad de bolsos de marca a la venta, invitamos a visitar!

  • I am so happy for you that you are blessed with two children in the first round of IVF treatments.

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